Finding balance

My wife passed in '02 and it really knocked the wind out of my sails. I pretty much lost interest in living myself and just really struggled and got myself into real trouble until I finally got on social security in the middle of my 62nd year. This provided enough to at least pay the rent but not more.

I have been a professional driver most of my working life but I really wanted to make a change now so I have been writing and working at making a living online. It is an adventure; it ain't easy but the carrot being dangled in front of my nose still beckons and it still seems like the way to go for me.

Although I am not a gambler, I stumbled onto this company called weekly wager that will give you $ to gamble in various casinos and poker rooms online. When you are done you submit a simple short report, and you can do this once a week.

Then I found out they would pay you a referral fee for anyone you sent their way who wanted to participate in the program. So I started referring people and this has provided a trickle of income for me.

Anyway, this post is about finding balance. What I have discovered is that my free time is much more valuable to me than $. Even though I am still pretty broke, I don't want to go back to driving. I would rather just work at what I want to, and live simply.

Having been involved in the spiritual life for most of my adult life helps. You realize how little stuff you really need to be happy. In fact, my focus has been mostly on getting rid of things to even further simplify my life.

I have also been repeatedly reminded how my thoughts create my reality. I have become very conscious how I can perpetuate poverty if I am not careful about what I am thinking. Gotta remember to thing about what I want, not what I don't want! So simple, but not so easy to overcome bad mental habits. Onward!